The two years that followed were a blur, but they were a LOT OF FUN! I walked away with my baby girl and our clothes, and not much else, but most importantly, I was finally happy again! I was no longer caught up in the fear of yet another confrontation with a man who was supposed to love me, who would call me every name under the sun. I was finally loving life again.
I also came to realise why he lashed out the way he did – he was extremely insecure and the only way he could cope with this was to keep my self esteem as low as possible. I believe on some level he knew I could do better, so he did everything he could to convince me that I was “below” him in some way.
Thankfully my higher self had other ideas and eventually managed to give me somebody to love more than I loved him, in the form of my daughter, to sow that seed that needed to grow in order for me to realise I could not keep living like this.
During this time I kept myself busy at work, and like I had been feeling for a number of years, I felt like I was destined to do something more with my life. I wasn’t sure what that thing was, however, so I just kept doing what I was doing, while reading more, exploring more, and learning more, about the Law of Attraction in particular, given this is what I had learned about almost 10 years earlier.
It was during those two years that I realised that I was a desirable person. I was dating, I had different men pursuing me, and while none of them felt “right”, they were mostly good people. I was really feeling good about myself when I meet husband #2…!
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