Two years after we were married and on my 26th birthday, I finally learned what unconditional love feels like. The birth of my daughter was the most incredible and wonderful feeling I’ve ever felt. The second I held her in my arms, I was completely in love!
Reality hit shortly after, because unfortunately I wasn’t yet aware of “energy healing”, and was therefore having to deal with a colicky baby and an unsupportive husband who kept saying “You’re not doing it right!” while he sat their on the couch. After one too many “You’re not doing it right” comments, I said “HERE! YOU TAKE HER AND SEE IF YOU CAN CALM HER DOWN!!!!!”
Little did I know, she was picking up on my energy. I was unhappy, frustrated, and not feeling supported. Not only that but I was tired. I was not in a good place, and many times I had to put my beautiful little girl into her cot and let her cry for a few minutes while I calmed myself down. It was a difficult time, but I lived for that little baby.
Many times, after yet another fight, I would consider taking my own life, but then I would think about my little girl. I couldn’t bear the thought of leaving her to fend for herself with a father like that, so I kept going.
One day, when my baby girl was around two years old, something “clicked” inside me. I thought to myself, “If I keep letting this happen, our daughter is going to think this is ok. And if she ends up with a man like my husband, I will never forgive myself.” It was at that moment that I made the decision. The next time he treated me badly, I was outta there! I could not let my daughter grow up and witness me tolerating his treatment of me. By doing so, I was telling her that his actions were ok, and they were NOT ok!
That night he lived up to my very low expectations and I left…
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